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《我用古典的方式爱过你》
作者：[美]艾米莉·狄金森 著 [美]托马斯·约翰逊 编 董恒秀 赖杰威
I Years had been from Home
And now before the Door
I dared not enter, lest a face
I never saw before
Stare solid into mine
And ask my Business there
My Business but a Life I left
Was such remaining there?
I leaned upon the Awe-
I lingered with Before
The Second like an Ocean rolled
And broke against my ear-
I laughed a crumbling Laugh
That I could fear a Door
Who Consternation compassed
And never winced before.
I fitted to the Latch
My Hand, with trembling care
Lest back the awful Door should spring
And leave me in the floor
我离家已多年,
而此刻,正在家门口
却没勇气开门,唯恐迎面一张
从未见过的脸
茫然地盯着我
问我有什么事
“什么事?——只是我留下的一个生活,
是否依然还在那里?”
我倚靠着畏惧
徘徊在从前
静默像大海起伏,
拍浪般地撞击我的耳朵。
我破碎地一笑
竟害怕一扇门,
我遭遇过危险也曾面对死亡
但从未战栗过。
我的手
小心颤抖地轻触门闩
唯恐这可怕的门突然反弹,
将我留在那里呆立着。
2020.11.12