- 章节名：BOOK 3
- 2017-04-22 13:51:34
We both must have reached the age when we can take some ironic pleasure in the knowledge of the triviality into which our lives have finally descended.It was this ambition that caused the first estrangement between us,anestrangement that grew so deep that at one period of our lives I spoke to my wife only of topics upon which I had made careful notes,so that we might not have to undergo the additional burden of misunderstanding,real or imagined.It is fortunate that youth never recognizes its ignorance,for if it did it would not find the courage to get the habit of endurance.It is perhaps an instinct of the blood and flesh which prevents this knowledge and allows the boy to become the man who will live to see the folly of his existence.But at that first moment,Nicolaus,I felt nothing;it was as if the cry of pain issued from another throat.Then a coldness came over me,and I walked away from my friends so that they could not see what I felt,and what I did not feel.And as I walked on that field alone,trying to rouse in myself the appropriate sense of grief and loss,I was suddenly elated,as one might be when riding a horse he feels the horse tense and bolt beneath him,knowing that he has the skill to control the poor spirited beast who in an excess of energy wishes to test his master.When I returned to my friends,I knew that I had changed,that I was someone other than I had been;I knew my destiny,and I could not speak to them of it.And yet they were my friends.If he is to obey his destiny,he must find or invent within himself some hard and secret part that is indifferent to himself,to others,and even to the world that he is destined to remake,not to his own desire,but to a nature that he will discover in the process of remaking. And yet they were my friends,and dearest to me at the precise moment when in my heart I gave them up.How contrary an animal is man,who most treasures what he refuses or abandons!Nor do I exempt myself from this contrariness.When I was young,I would have said that loneliness and secrecy were forced upon me.I would have been in error.As most men do,I chose my life then;I chose to enclose myself in the half-formed dream of a destiny no one could share,and thus abandoned the possibility of that kind of human friendship which is so ordinary that it is never spoken of,and thus is seldom cherished. One does not deceive oneself about the consequences of one's acts;one deceives oneself about the ease with which one can live with those consequences.
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