chapter two : Because Good Intentions Aren't Enough

“I enrolled in the Stanford Graduate School of Education, and simultaneously took a vice-principal intern role at Mountain View.”
在她进入到这所学校之前，她刚刚结束了五年的基础教学工作。满身疲惫的她在她丈夫换工作的档，她一度想趁着搬家放弃教学去做些别的。
这跟我现在的处境差不多。因为丈夫的工作调动，加上我怀孕已经30周，我现在满脑子想的就是趁着这个机会放一个长假。现在虽然我不想教学了，但是我知道过一阵子我就会又想回到教学中去了。与人之间的关系实在是最值得投资的地方。
“We were going to bring our first and only child into an entirely different world. On what should have been a joyous occasion, I held our puppy and wondered what it would be like to hold my child and know I couldn’t protect him.”
911发生的那天她测出来怀孕了。然后她心中想到她的第一个也是独生子来到这个她势必无法保护得了他的世界，她不知所措。 就像现在我怀孕30周，新冠状病毒这场疫情像一场没有硝烟的战争，我不知道还有多久这场战争才能结束...
怀孕书上说人和其他动物一样都有筑巢本能（nesting instinct），尤其是到了孕晚期越接近临产就越明显，准妈妈们忙前忙后竭尽所能给即将出生的小宝宝张罗一切，症状夸张的人.(这东西我完全没有)
“America went to war and the weeks of my pregnancy ticked away. I would click off the evening news and go to bed wondering what the world would look like the next day. People kept asking me if my nesting instinct had kicked in. The truth was I had no idea what they were talking about, but I kind of hoped there might be a magical moment when, like a mother bird, I would suddenly know exactly what I was supposed to do as a mom and just start doing it. It was clear I needed to prepare for my child, I just didn’t have any idea where to start when I couldn’t even imagine what the future would bring.”
这段简直心有戚戚焉