苔衣对《The Remains of the Day》的笔记(2)

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The Remains of the Day
  • 书名: The Remains of the Day
  • 作者: Kazuo Ishiguro
  • 页数: 245
  • 出版社: Vintage International
  • 出版年: 1990-9-12
  • 第239页
    After all, there's no turning back the clock now. One can't be forever dwelling on what might have . One should realize one has as good as most, perhaps better, and be grateful.
    读到结尾Stevens和Miss Kenton雨中相叙直至分别的一段,不由得一阵悲哀油然而生,仿佛不知不觉间心里也下起雨来,很细很轻的、却湿润到无边无际的drizzle。
    Miss Kenton这一长段看似人人都能说的哲理,其实透着黯然的无奈。这意思其实是:
    曾经我确实爱过你,曾经的你何尝不明白我爱你,可是那时,你不敢直面这份爱,你以为爱情是人生的附属品。我想我一辈子也等不到你的那三个字了,所以我离开了。岁月渐渐磨平了我的隐痛,现在我有了一个我深爱的丈夫,还有一个我深爱的女儿,你想让我们回到从前的日子,还有意义么?还有可能么?
    两个生活在一起的人之间,其实并不一定需要彼此相爱,日复一日,年复一年,被生活琐事捆绑着,久而久之,哪怕没有爱,也会彼此需要,也能够彼此取暖。
    即便曾经我确实爱过你,可是我的人生,并不缺少你那一份爱。
    说到底,我们回不去了。
    两人都明白,这一次分别即是此生诀别。虽然相距并不遥远,虽然余生还有不短的时光,可是,彼此都明白,眼前这个人,这个我曾日思夜想的人,我永远不会再见了。
    过去的事情一旦被全部解释清楚了,生命的交集也就结束了。
    2019-07-13 18:43:45 2人喜欢 1回应
  • 第244页
    The evening is the best part of the day. You've done your day's work.Now you can put your feet up and enjoy it.
    What is the point in worrying oneself too much about what one could or could not have done to control the course one's life took? Surely it is enough that the likes of you and I at least try to make our small contribution count for something true and worthy. And if some of us are prepared to sacrifice much in life in order to pursue such aspirations, surely that is in itself, whatever the outcome, cause for pride and contentment.
    结尾,Stevens面对凄凉晚景,连作者都忍不住借海边陌生老人的话安慰他几句。然而从这样忍耐、牺牲、克制的一生里,Stevens到底收获了什么呢?在那堆积如山的回忆里,曾经以为的荣耀,而今却也只是虚妄。
    可是直到最后,Stevens却依旧不能从虚妄中醒来。
    2013-08-01 20:49:46 回应