Mother says as th' two worst things as can happen to a child is never to have his own way -- or always to have it.引自 XVIII
I seemed to be the one who never have her way. Lacking of confidence, obeying too much, thinking too little.
I thought parents were always right. I thought teachers were always right. I thought books were always right. I distrusted and ignored my own feelings and views. I always referred to parents or teachers or books instead of considering my own feeling even when I might feel that they were wrong and I was right. I told myself. You must be wrong. I never had my own way. I never allow myself to have my own way.
And now, I must create it.
Then sometimes the immense quiet of the dark blue at night with millions of stars waiting and watching makes one sure; and sometimes a sound of far-off music makes it true; and sometimes a look in some one's eyes.引自 XXI
