And so that I watch you from afar

There's loneliness, then there's haruki loneliness.
Regardless how many times I went through this novel, the everlasting despair and confusion still struke me, every single time.

That was actually an understatement. It's not just the personal attachment you end up having after reading the book, you were put on the same wave length as the author and the character you love and hate.

That certain moment in time, frozen, forever and ever.

This novel is a page turner, it fills you up during the reading and it bottoms out in a nano second --- the unbearable emptiness, the unforgiving urge to re open the book and experience...or enjoy someone else's state of mind.

Then wish you were as desperate.