The four items needed to be solved

边看边记，都是当时的心得体会。

P29
…he made lists of what he needed to resolve, and fast, in the following year: his work (at a standstill), his love life (nonsexist), his sexuality (unresolved), his future (uncertain). The four items were always the same, although sometimes their order of priority changed. Also consistent was his ability to precisely diagnose their status, coupled with his utter inability to provide any solutions.


P152
…a metaphor for life in general: things get broken, and sometimes they get repaired, and in most cases, you realize that no matter what gets damaged, life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss, sometimes wonderfully.


10.20.2017
最近的几篇都是关于Jude，真是一个让人心疼的孩子，这么优秀这么渺小，这么脆弱这么坚韧，这么自卑这么强大。
第一次被他惊到是在介绍episode那里，想象一个人蜷着身子像一只小虾米，但是又坚强地默默扛下来。
第二次是在cut，对于伤口的描述让我现在还有阴影。手臂好像长出了一张嘴，汩汩地往外流血，鲜血冒着泡儿像温泉水一样止不住,bubbling.
接着是Ana,他的social worker。Ana在临死前想的最后一件事居然是给Jude列大学新生购物清单。
还有Andy，作为Jude的“独家医生”是一个严厉又柔软的角色。Jude会习惯性自残，割伤自己，每次都是Andy帮他收拾烂摊子。Andy也是Jude唯一相信的医生，在心理上也是提供了许多支持。
然后是他和Harold的故事，Harold爱才，又很疼惜他，侧面反映了他的优秀。听他讲pure math和applied math的区别，真的深深被吸引，看着他一步一步从law school到judge的助手，又到US Attorney’s Office, 这真的就是优秀的人的路径。
一个弱小到时刻准备着失去友情，失去所有的人，一个温暖的爱着所有爱着他的人的天才，正是因为他的善良和自己内心的强大，才吸引了这么多善良的人，围在他身边，帮助他，宠着他。就像是四兄弟中的忙内一样，受着大家的宠爱。

如果a little life要拍成电影，我希望Eddie Redmayne可以演，就像他在 万物理论 和 神奇动物在哪里 里展现的那种一瘸一拐的天才模样，还有丹麦女孩里的别扭，就是我心中脆弱天才Jude的样子。

P257
关于友情
He took pleasure in his friendships, and it didn’t hurt anyone, so who cared if it was codependent or not? And anyway, how was a friendship any more codependent than a relationship? Why was it admirable when you were twenty-seven but creepy when you were thirty-seven? Why wasn’t friendship as good as a relationship? Why wasn’t it even better? It was two people who remained together, day after day, bound not by sex or physical attraction or money or children or property, but only by the shared agreement to keep going, the mutual dedication to a union that could never be codified. Friendship was witnessing another’s slow drip of miseries, and long bouts of boredom, and occasional triumphs. It was feeling honored by the privilege of getting to be present for another person’s most dismal moments, and knowing that you could be dismal around him in return.

P282 2017.12.27
渐渐有点受不了Jude的玻璃心了。虽说不至于“我弱我有理”但这种别扭的心态真的是。直面自己的physical challenge，坦然接受朋友的帮助，这才是真正的勇敢呀。固执地要坚强，要表现得hardy，超出能力范围的坚持并不是真的勇敢啊。每个人都要小心翼翼地照顾你，不仅要帮助你，还要伺候你的玻璃心。

或许这种别扭只有真正经历过的人才会懂吧。