Siddhartha

========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 43 | Loc. 646-49 | Added on Saturday, January 18, 2014, 07:23 AM And, he decided, It was the Self whose meaning and nature I wished to learn. It was the Self I wished to escape from, wished to overcome. But I was unable to overcome it, I could only trick it, could only run away from it and hide. Truly, not a single thing in all the world has so occupied my thoughts as this Self of mine, this riddle: that I am alive and that I am One, am different and separate from all others, that I am Siddhartha! ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 43 | Loc. 651-55 | Added on Saturday, January 18, 2014, 07:26 AM That I know nothing of myself, that Siddhartha has remained such a stranger to me, such an unknown, comes from one cause, from a single cause: I was afraid of myself, was running away from myself! I was searching for Atman, searching for Brahman; I was prepared to chop my ego into little pieces and peel off its layers so as to find, in its unknown innermost core, the kernel that lies at the heart of every husk: Atman, Life, the Divine, that final utmost thing. But I myself got lost in the process. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 43 | Loc. 660 | Added on Saturday, January 18, 2014, 07:27 AM I’ll be my own teacher, my own pupil. I’ll study myself, learn the secret that is Siddhartha. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 44 | Loc. 666-68 | Added on Saturday, January 18, 2014, 07:30 AM Blue was blue, river was river, and even if the One, the Divine, lay hidden in the blue and the river within Siddhartha, it was still the nature and intention of the Divine to be yellow here, blue here, sky over there, forest there, and here Siddhartha. Meaning and being did not lie somewhere behind things; they lay within them, within everything. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 48 | Loc. 722-24 | Added on Monday, January 20, 2014, 07:07 AM Thought and senses were both fine things. Ultimate meaning lay hidden behind them; both should be listened to, played with, neither scorned nor overvalued, for in each of them the secret voice of the innermost core might be discerned. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 54 | Loc. 815-16 | Added on Monday, January 20, 2014, 07:26 AM You are a willing pupil, Siddhartha, so learn this as well: Love can be begged, bought, or received as a gift, one can find it in the street, but one cannot steal it. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 58 | Loc. 875-78 | Added on Thursday, January 23, 2014, 08:45 PM You see, Kamala, when you throw a stone into the water, it hurries by the swiftest possible path to the bottom. It is like this when Siddhartha has a goal, a resolve. Siddhartha does nothing—he waits, he thinks, he fasts—but he passes through the things of this world like a stone through water, without doing anything, without moving; he is drawn and lets himself fall. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 58 | Loc. 878 | Added on Thursday, January 23, 2014, 08:46 PM His goal draws him to it, for he allows nothing into his soul that might conflict with this goal. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 64 | Loc. 981-82 | Added on Monday, February 03, 2014, 04:14 AM At once he would become conscious for an hour that he was living a strange life, that all the things he was doing here were but a game, and that, while he was in good spirits and at times felt joy, life itself was nonetheless rushing by without touching him. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 66 | Loc. 1005-6 | Added on Monday, February 03, 2014, 04:22 AM And yet all this time, beloved, you have remained a Samana. Even now you do not love me; you love no one. Is it not so?” ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 66 | Loc. 1007-8 | Added on Monday, February 03, 2014, 04:22 AM Perhaps people of our sort are incapable of love. The child people can love; that is their secret.” ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 68 | Loc. 1036-37 | Added on Monday, February 03, 2014, 04:29 AM He envied them the one thing they possessed that he was lacking: the importance they were capable of attaching to their lives, their passionate joys and fears, the happiness, uneasy but sweet, of their eternal infatuations. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 70 | Loc. 1059-61 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 04:58 AM Again and again he sought to renew it, to increase it, to goad it to a higher level of intensity, for only in the grasp of this fear did he still feel something like happiness, something like intoxication, something like exalted life in the midst of his jaded, dull, insipid existence. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 82 | Loc. 1246-47 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 09:18 PM I have had to pass through so much foolishness, so much vice, so much error, so much nausea and disillusionment and wretchedness, merely in order to become a child again and be able to start over. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 82 | Loc. 1247-49 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 09:19 PM But all of this was just and proper; my heart is saying yes, and my eyes are laughing. I had to experience despair, I had to sink to the most foolish of all thoughts, the thought of suicide, to be able to experience grace, to hear Om again, to be able to sleep well and awaken well. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 82 | Loc. 1250-51 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 09:20 PM How stupid it is, this path of mine; it goes in loops. For all I know it’s going in a circle. Let it lead where it will, I shall follow it. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 90 | Loc. 1367-68 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 10:19 PM that the river is in all places at once, at its source and where it flows into the sea, at the waterfall, at the ferry, at the rapids, in the ocean, in the mountains, everywhere at once, so for the river there is only the present moment and not the shadow of a future?” ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 92 | Loc. 1408-9 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 10:45 PM No, a true seeker could not accept doctrine, not a seeker who truly wished to find. But the one who had found what he was seeking could give his approval to any teaching, any discipline at all, to any path, any ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 97 | Loc. 1473-74 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 11:03 PM Pallid, he sat for days beside the dead woman’s hillock, refused to eat, shut his eyes, and shut his heart, struggling against Fate, resisting it. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 99 | Loc. 1517-18 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 11:10 PM Were his father’s piety, his teachers’ admonitions, his own knowledge, and his own searching able to protect him? What father, what teacher, was able to protect him from living life himself, soiling himself with life, accumulating guilt, drinking the bitter drink, finding his own path? ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 101 | Loc. 1536-38 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 11:16 PM He could sense quite distinctly that this blind love for his son was a passion, something very human, that it was Sansara, a muddy spring, dark water. Yet at the same time he felt that it was not without value—it was necessary, it came out of his own being. This too was pleasure that had to be atoned for; this too, pain to be experienced; these too, follies to be committed. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 103 | Loc. 1571-72 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 11:23 PM Nonetheless, he continued to run without stopping, no longer because he wished to rescue the boy but merely out of desire, in the hope of perhaps seeing him once more. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 105 | Loc. 1609-14 | Added on Sunday, February 09, 2014, 11:33 PM A mother’s blind love for her child, a self-satisfied father’s blind pride in his one little son, a vain young woman’s blind, furious urge to bedeck herself with jewels and attract men’s admiring glances—all these drives, all these childish matters, all these simple, foolish, but enormously strong, strongly alive, strongly asserted drives and desires were no longer mere child’s play to Siddhartha; he saw people living for their sake, saw them performing endless feats for their sake—making journeys, waging wars, suffering endless sufferings, enduring endless burdens—and he was able to love them for this; he saw life, the living, the indestructible, the Brahman in each of their passions, each of their deeds. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 112 | Loc. 1710-12 | Added on Monday, February 10, 2014, 04:03 AM “When a person seeks,” Siddhartha said, “it can easily happen that his eye sees only the thing he is seeking; he is incapable of finding anything, of allowing anything to enter into him, because he is always thinking only of what he is looking for, because he has a goal, because he is possessed by his goal. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 112 | Loc. 1712 | Added on Monday, February 10, 2014, 04:03 AM Seeking means having a goal. Finding means being free, being open, having no goal. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 114 | Loc. 1742-43 | Added on Monday, February 10, 2014, 04:08 AM Everything is one-sided that can be thought in thoughts and said with words, everything one-sided, everything half, everything is lacking wholeness, roundness, oneness. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 114 | Loc. 1746-47 | Added on Monday, February 10, 2014, 04:09 AM It only seems so because we are subject to the illusion that time exists as something real. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 115 | Loc. 1760-63 | Added on Monday, February 10, 2014, 04:16 AM I experienced by observing my own body and my own soul that I sorely needed sin, sorely needed concupiscence, needed greed, vanity, and the most shameful despair to learn to stop resisting, to learn to love the world and stop comparing it to some world I only wished for and imagined, some sort of perfection I myself had dreamed up, but instead to let it be as it was and to love it and be happy to belong to it. ========== Siddhartha (Hermann Hesse) - Highlight on Page 118 | Loc. 1795-96 | Added on Monday, February 10, 2014, 04:23 AM But what interests me is being able to love the world, not scorn it, not to hate it and hate myself, but to look at it and myself and all beings with love and admiration and reverence.” ==========

1. bis 6. Auflage. Berlin: S. Fischer, 1922. Siddharthas的出场写得像琼瑶女主角。20世纪初欧洲那群衣着考究自命不凡的恋童癖老头子写起美少年都一副口水长流的德性。 然后还常常安插一个挥之不去的狗腿黑影长侍美少年左右，作为自己的化身以解爱慕而不得的相思之苦：

-and all were not worth a passing glance, everything lied, stank of lies; they were all illusions of sense, happiness and beauty. All were doomed to decay. The world tasted bitter. Life was pain. -what is meditation? What is abandonment of the body? What is fasting? What is the holding of breath? It is a flight from the self, it is a temporary escape from the torment of self. It is a temporary palliative against the pain and folly of life. -Well, are we on the right road? Are we gaining knowledge? Are we approaching salvation? Or are we perhaps going in circles- we who thought to escape from the cycle? -We find consolations, we learn tricks with which we deceive ourselves, but the essential thing- the way- we do not find.

He saw merchants trading, princes hunting, mourners wailing for their dead, whores offering themselves, physicians trying to help the sick, priests determining the most suitable day for seeding, lovers loving, mothers nursing their children—and all of this was not worthy of one look from his eye, it all lied, it all stank, it all stank of lies, it all pretended to be meaningful and joyful and beautiful, and it all was just concealed putrefaction. The world tasted bitter. Life was torture." ＿＿＿＿＿ "It was the self, the purpose and essence of which I sought to learn. It was the self, I wanted to free myself from, which I sought to overcome. But I was not able to overcome it, could only deceive it, could only flee from it, only hide from it. Truly, no thing in this world has kept my thoughts thus busy, as this my very own self, this mystery of me being alive, of me being one and being separated and isolated from all others, of me being [me]! And there is no thing in this world I know less about than about me" ＿＿＿＿＿ "He had sucked up disgust and death from all sides into his body, like a sponge sucks up water until it is full. And full he was, full of the feeling of been sick of it, full of misery, full of death, there was nothing left in this world which could have attracted him, given him joy, given him comfort."