I don't love any of my old boyfriends anymore. I'm not sure I ever did, and I'm not sure if at the time I was sure. My mother says that's normal, that men are proud of every one of their conquests, and women wish they could forget it all. (查看原文)
That night on the stage of Finney Chapel, I feel adrenalized and inchoate, like I have something to prove and no drive to do it. I've braided my hair and I can feel it sliding slowly and surely, down my neck in wet clumps. A favorite professor asks me thoughtful questions, and I answer as best I can, with sound bites that have worked in the past. (查看原文)
If I had known how much I would miss these sensations I might have experienced them differently, recognized their shabby glamour, respected the ticking clock that defined this entire experience. I would have put aside my resentment, dropped my defenses. I might have a basic understanding of European history or economics. More abstractly, I might feel I had truly been somewhere, open and porous and hungry to learn. Because being a student was an enviable identity and one I can only reclaim by attending community college late in life for a bookmaking class or something. (查看原文)
I've always had a talent for recognizing when I am in a moment worth being nostalgic for. When I was little, my mother would come home from a party, her hair cool from the wind, her perfume almost gone, and her lips a faded red, and she would coo at me: "You're still awake! Hiiii." And I'd think how beautiful she was and how I always wanted to remember her stepping out of the elevator in her pea-green wool coat, thirty-nine years old, just like that...But school was so essentially repulsive to me, so characterized by a desire to be done. That's part of why it hurts so bad to see it again. (查看原文)
作者: Lena Dunham 副标题: A Young Woman Tells You What She's "Learned" isbn: 081299499X 书名: Not That Kind of Girl 页数: 288 定价: USD 28.00 出版社: Random House 装帧: Hardcover 出版年: 2014-9-30
