喧哗与骚动

……“过去”是这个世界上最悲伤的一个字了舍此之外世界上一无所有……

窗框的阴影出现在窗帘上的时候，约莫七八点钟，我又回到了时间里，又在听表了。表是爷爷的，父亲把它给我的时候说我把它给你了，你要把它当成所有希望和欲望的坟墓。你要通过它，认识到所有人类体验的reducto absurdum———这认识让人痛苦但不可或缺。它不符合他和他父亲的需要，也未必满足你的需要。我把它给你，不是要你记住时间，而是让你不时地忘掉它，不至于把力气全用在企图征服时间上。他说，人类和时间战斗从未胜过。这些战斗甚至从未发生。战场只不过昭示了人类自己的愚蠢和绝望，而所谓的胜利，不过是哲人和傻子的幻觉。

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人类和时间战斗从未胜过。这些战斗甚至从未发生。战场只不过昭示了人类自己的愚蠢和绝望，而所谓的胜利，不过是哲人和傻子的幻觉。－－－P68

父亲说，钟表杀死时间。他说，只要那小小的齿轮在转动，让时间滴滴答答流逝，那么时间就是死的，只有在钟表停转的时候，时间才会活过来。指针伸展着，略略上翘，如同迎风侧飞的海鸥。心中装满旧日的苦水，如同新月装满雨水一样。－－－P76

在家里八月底的有些日子就像这样，空气稀薄而炽烈，仿佛有一种忧伤，一种怀旧，一种熟悉。人是这种季节变换的总和，父亲说的。人是凡此种种之总和。人生不过是一道各样特征皆有杂质的难题，在百般沉闷中，我们被动地迈向永恒不变的虚无：一边是灰尘，一边是欲望，二者僵持不下。－－－P110

英文原文：

This was where I saw the river for the last time this morning, about here. I could feel water beyond the twilight, smell. When it bloomed in the spring and it rained the smell was everywhere you didn't notice it so much at other times but when it rained the smell began to come into the house at twilight either it would rain more at twilight or there was something in the light itself but it always smelled strongest then until I would lie in bed thinking when will it stop when will it stop. The draft in the door smelled of water, a damp steady breath. Sometimes I could put myself to sleep saying that over and over until after the honeysuckle got all mixed up in it the whole thing came to symbolis night and unrest I seemed to be lying neither asleep nor awake looking down a long corridor of gray halflight where all stable things had become shadowy paradoxical all I had done shadows all I had felt suffered taking visible form antic and perverse mocking without relevance inherent themselves with the denial of the significance they should have affirmed thinking I was I was not who was not was not who. I could smell the curves of the river beyond the dusk and I saw the last light supine and tranquil upon tideflats like pieces of broken mirror, then beyond them lights began in the pale clear air, trembling a little like butterflies hovering a long way off. Benjamin the child of. How he used to sit before that mirror. Refuge unfailing in which conflict tempered silenced reconciled. Benjamin the child of mine old age held hostage into Egypt. O Benjamin. Dilsey said it was because Mother was too proud for him. They come into white people's lives like that in sudden sharp black trickles that isolate white facts for an instant in unarguable truth like under a microscope; the rest of the time just voices that laugh when you see nothing to laugh at, tears when no reason for tears. They will bet on the odd or even number of mourners at a funeral. A brothel full of them in Memphis went into a religious trance ran naked into the street. It took three policemen to subdue one of them. Yes Jesus O good man Jesus O that good man.