冰箱里的灯

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• I have to admit, though, that I knew I wasn’t mad. It was a different precondition that tipped the balance: the state of contrariety. My ambition was to negate. The world, whether dense or hollow, provoked only my negations. When I was supposed to be awake, I was asleep; when I was supposed to speak, I was silent; when a pleasure offered itself to me, I avoided it. My hunger, my thirst, my loneliness and boredom and fear were all weapons aimed at my enemy, the world. They didn't matter a whit to the world, of course, and they tormented me, but I got the gruesome satisfaction from my sufferings. They proved my existence. All my integrity seemed to lie in saying No. (查看原文)

  water 1赞 2013-06-25 21:14:27

• 当我觉得自己被生活关在了门外，怎样表达愤怒才算是处于恰当的激烈程度？我的同班同学们都在忙着将梦想编织进自己的未来，他们有的要当律师，有的要做民族植物学家，还有的想成为一名佛教僧人（由此可见我上的是一所多么先锋的高中）。就连那些中规中矩、从不让生活出现偏差的无聊的笨蛋们，也在计划着自己的婚姻和下一代。我知道我的人生中是不会有这些东西的，因为这些根本不是我想要的。可是，难道这样就意味着我应该被剥夺一切吗？ (查看原文)

  鑫鑫鑫❤ 1赞 2016-07-01 14:05:44

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