"Leave me alone, let me have at least one night when I don't cry myselt to sleep with my eyes burning and my head pounding. Let me get away, away from everything, away from this world!" But I can't do that. I can't let them see my doubts, or the wounds they've inflicted on me. I couldn't bear their sympathy or these good-humored derision. It would only make me want to scream even more......All day long I hear nothing but what an exasperating child I am, and although I laught it off and pretend not to mind, I do mind. I wish I could ask God to give me another personality, one that doesn't antagnize everyone.But that's impossible. I'm stuck with the character I was born with, and yet I'm sure I'm not a bad person. I do my best to please everyone, more than they'd ever suspect in a million ye... (查看原文)