雪豹读后感

Initially when I pick up the book I thought it was about the snow leopard or at least about people in Central Asia…… but it turns out to be all about the authors experience in Nepal and North India and his thoughts on Buddhism,…..
刚拿起书看书名的时候以为全是关于这个雪豹或者至少是关于中亚的，没想到这书全是作者在尼泊尔和印度北部的经历还有他对佛教的思考
But it turns through Matthiessen’ book I finally start to understand the land I’m familiar with yet never really understand 通过mathiessen的书我终于开始理解东亚那一片我熟悉但是从来没有真正理解的土地

About different people like sherpas, magar, Mongolia pony person who practice Shamanism, others and trekking situations like blizzard in Nepal and the river of Brahmaputra 作者谈到了不同的人，比如各种尼泊尔当地人，有什么山上的人，有信萨满教的骑马的类似蒙古人的人，还有尼泊尔各种天气比如暴雪还有爬山的危险，还有印度的河流。。。

Lots of vocabulary I don’t understand, so I heavily relied on Google for the first half of book…. I learned about the place of Varanasi….where the Buddha originates from and the source of East Asian spirit of Ganges infatuation…..and cannibalism on the burning ghat….. 很多词汇都不懂，所以都要一个个查，累得我要死。。。我知道了一个神奇的魔幻的地方叫做varanasi…就是传说中佛祖来的地方也是亚洲河流崇拜的起源。。。还有它出名的河边烧死人和宗教仪式的传统。。。。

Then the author said about Zen Buddhism Japanese Buddhism and how other East Asian Buddhism are actually one branch of the tantric Buddhism from Tibet….. out of all the branches of Buddhism
like Chinese Guan yin is Avalokita a female presence, and Japanese Kanin of neutral sex in tantric worship of female energies, and Matthiessen noticed such phenomenon in Hinduism and Buddhism.

然后坐着讨论了传到日本的佛教禅宗还有别的东亚佛教其实都是从西藏的一直tantric佛教的一支。。。。比如中国佛教里的观音是女性的外表，在印度叫avalokita是女性外表,在日本叫kanin是个中性的，matthiessen认为是tantric这一支佛教和印度教对女性的能量的热爱。。。

before reading this book I always thought Buddhism is strictly ascetic,… but it turns tantric Buddhism believe sex wine feasting as channeling of energies to “spiritual growth”…..and lose of self identity? To understand the existence and some blah blah in universe?
Tantric Buddhism also embrace consumption of human flesh as an “embrace of all existence”……(wtf….)
Matthiessen interprets this as the earliest form of human’s religious intuition….

读这本书之前我一直以为佛教是十分禁欲的。。。但是没有想到原来最正统的佛教是超级信奉性交喝酒吃肉来把能量转移到“灵魂的成长”…..貌似还有扔掉个人意识来实现对宇宙和存在的感知什么的。。。。。

而且人家还不是简简单单吃肉而已。。。。人家要吃的人肉！ （吓死人！）tantric佛教认为吃人肉（是吃人类的肉哦！）可以帮助人的灵魂成长并且接受一切事物的存在。。。。matthiessen认为这个tantric佛教是人类宗教冲动的最早的形态
Matthiessen also commented that Buddhism changed its direction in the 16th century led by Dalai Lama and nyingma? Actually in 11th century, they started the Kagyu sect? Of kalachkra? circle of time, lord of death（sounds like nihilism?) , “journey to Shambala”, wearing skulls and human skins, also perceived as Mahakala/time? Mahakala is symbolized by priest’s holding of a skull cup full of blood to admonish people to abandon their past and worldly existence of Samsara? In order to reborn?
while at the same time (16th century?) the mongols conquered northern India and killed all the tantrists by using elephants to crush them to death……

matthiessen也评论到佛教在16世纪在达赖喇嘛的带领下发生了转变。其实在11世纪他们就还是了。貌似是开始了kalachkra?就是永恒的时间，死亡，（类似虚无主义）一个穿着人骷髅还有人皮的一个人物概念。 kalachkra也叫做mahakala? 他在佛教里的形象是有一个僧人拿着一个人的头骨，里面装满了血来告诫人们放弃他们的过去还有世俗来实现重生（大概是这样我非常不确定。。。）

然后同时（16世纪）一堆蒙古人跑去征服了印度北边然后下令把所有信tantric佛教这一支的所有印度人全部用大象踩死或者压死。。。。
About different concepts and gods in Buddhism like wheel of dharma…kalachakra “tiger god”, samantabhadra, Parma sambhava(wtf is all these names? Their Chinese translation is even worse) avalokita in lotus, dorje(vajradhara) or thunderbolt that symbolize energy and Tibetan Buddha who transmitted dharma to tilopa, to Naropa? To Lama Maria….. the process of reincarnation…….

作者还讨论了佛教里的几个概念还有神。。。名字都特么很长。。用英文看我已经很难受了。。。翻译成中文更恶心。。。。你们想看就看上面吧。。。大概就是几个神，通过雷这个能量传给了另外一个神，然后实现了肉肉的之间的接力棒，让这个灵魂永生。。。。