终究是昙花一现

记得第一本看完的英文原版书，是Anderson Cooper的Dispatches from the edge，对他充满好奇，10岁父亲去世，17岁时哥哥跳楼自杀，用一本假证件打入记者圈，奔赴世界各地最危险的地方，最终成为CNN金牌主持，获奖无数，46岁公开出柜（实际上十几岁时就带男友回家过夜了）。这本和母亲共同署名的The rainbow comes and goes，实际上以母亲为主。出身名门的Gloria Vanderbilt，一生更加传奇，含着金钥匙出生，却命运多桀。睡不着的时候可以Count lovers instead of sheep，却眼睁睁看着儿子坐在阳台上，听不进自己的哭求，let go。(Anderson 唯一的亲哥哥，抑郁症）这位92岁的母亲回忆说：Is the pain less? No, just different. It is not something you ‘work through’; it is not something that goes away or fades into the landscape. It is there forever and ever, inescapable until the day you die. 她对Anderson 说：With aging you gain perspective, as if looking through a telescope. Your eye focuses and sees things you never noticed before, or never wanted to. 也许，这就是阅历带给人的醇厚。这位母亲是艺术家，作家，设计师，九十几岁依然才思敏捷，活跃于自己的舞台。