The Oscar-nominated star who captivated the world with his performance in Juno finally shares his truth.
“Can I kiss you?” It was two months before the world premiere of Juno, and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. A previously unfathomable experience. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he’d carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back.
With Juno’s massive success, Elliot became one of the world’s most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare.
As he navigated criticism and abuse from some of the most powerful people in Hollywood, a past that snapped at his heels, and a society dead set on forcing him into a binary, Elliot often stayed silent, unsure of what to do, until enough was enough. Full of behind the scenes details and intimate interrogations on sex, love, trauma, and Hollywood, Pageboy is the story of a life pushed to the brink. But at its core, this beautifully written, winding journey of what it means to untangle ourselves from the expectations of others is an ode to stepping into who we truly are with defiance, strength, and joy.
1 有用 颠三儿不能明白 2024-02-23 00:01:34 云南
有点散碎了,不是非线性叙事的锅,是我自己名字太多就一团乱麻的锅(当然也包括我读的译本翻译一塌糊涂不得不借助我糟糕的英语来理解)。但是极为真诚,勇敢,讲述性别焦虑的部分因太过真实而让我创痛。我当然知道性别肯定手术不是一切的解法,但我很想找到我自己也让别人看到我自己
0 有用 TechSlavery 2024-01-09 10:37:53 美国
很感谢他能把自己的故事写下来,很感谢他实践的勇敢。自我否定厌恶的部分对童年时期就察觉到设定规则中的不对劲的人来说并不难关联。读的时候几度迷惑,因为这是一场你不能把单个条件抽离出来分析的人生实验,即使它与亲子关系,物理创伤,行业生态等因素如此紧密的交缠在一起,但如果全然接受又为何要执着于因果。读倒数第二章的时候我在想如果是我被告知身体改造的决定,我能做的比那些自作聪明的回应,虚假的欢欣鼓舞要好么。我... 很感谢他能把自己的故事写下来,很感谢他实践的勇敢。自我否定厌恶的部分对童年时期就察觉到设定规则中的不对劲的人来说并不难关联。读的时候几度迷惑,因为这是一场你不能把单个条件抽离出来分析的人生实验,即使它与亲子关系,物理创伤,行业生态等因素如此紧密的交缠在一起,但如果全然接受又为何要执着于因果。读倒数第二章的时候我在想如果是我被告知身体改造的决定,我能做的比那些自作聪明的回应,虚假的欢欣鼓舞要好么。我可以藏起怯懦,但言语背后哪怕只是掺入一粒沙的价值判断,我的真身即无所遁形。 (展开)
1 有用 kolal84 2023-09-12 13:30:58 澳大利亚
没有读完 看到Eliot很多创伤记忆和作为lesbian 和trans 所遭遇的对待 长久的internalized homophbia和压抑总会爆发
2 有用 J 2023-08-17 19:01:23 山东
同样作为一个非二元性别者,对他讲述为了角色,被迫穿上自己不喜欢的女性化服装的那种不适感很触动,很难解释只是一件衣服而已,为何让人身心如此煎熬痛苦,就像是众人面前的小丑,感觉自己的皮肤都要被灼伤,甚至感到身心分离,灵魂拼命想要逃出身体,
0 有用 Nebula 2023-09-20 14:57:31 中国香港
唉……