爱情刽子手

你到底有没有信心，没有他的你的生活会比有他的你的生活更美好？

Thelma felt that the obsession contained infinitely more vitality than her lived experience.

尝试了It was because of the impoverishment of her life that she embraced the obsession in the first place.效果不佳。It seemed to me that the source of its hold on her was the power she had given Matthew. Nothing could be done until we diminished that power.

You are you, you have your own experience, you continue to be the person you are from moment to moment, from day to day. Basically your existence is impervious to the fleeting thoughts, to the electromagnetic ripples occuring in some unknown mind. 别人脑海或心理的电波想法意识不改变你的存在。

Thelma was responsible for her own life predicament. Obviously, it was a fiction that Matthew had any real power over her. She gave him taht power in an effort to deny her own freedom and her responsibility for the constitution of her own life. Far from wanting to take back her freedom from Matthew, she had a lust for submission.

If he died you'd be happy because the disapproval is gone.

I was sitting Vipassana for three to four hours a day. I considered becoming a Buddhist monk and went to India for a thirty-day meditation retreat in Igapuri, a small village north of Bombay. The regimen was too severe for me—total silence, total isolation, sitting meditation for fourteen hours a day—and I began to lose my ego boundaries. By the third week I was hallucinating and thought that I could see through walls and had total access to both my past and future lives. The monks took me to Bombay, and an Indian doctor put me on antipsychotic medication and called my brother, who flew to India to take me home. I was hospitalized for about four weeks in Los Angeles. I was still in a very fragmented state of mind. I had turned the Buddhist doctrines into a real craziness and believed I was in a state of oneness with everybody.

She had lost her hope for the future (by that she meant she had lost her “one-percent chance” of reconciliation); she had also lost the best twenty-seven days of her life (if, as I had shown her, they weren’t “real,” then she had lost this sustaining memory of her life’s highest point); and she had also lost eight years of sacrifice (if she had been protecting an illusion, then her sacrifice had been meaningless).

然后thelma中止了治疗，她和matthew每个月见一次面谈心，然后她就好了...

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闪闪发光的眼镜后面是他茫然的眼神。

情感未必遵循理智的规范。事实上，两者往往背道而驰。

但是这种爱一成不变转眼无踪，有时候是一阵惆怅成烟云，有时候则醋海生波相责怪。